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May 5, 2015

Not My Monkey, Not My Zoo!!

I’ve watched people who have hurt me move on with their lives as if nothing happened. They left me struggling to pick up the pieces from their damage for years. Until one day I developed this theory while begging God to take the pain away: Hurt me once, shame on you! But hurting myself twice because I can’t forgive what you did, shame on me!! Listen, aint nobody got time for that!! I forgive because I haven’t met a person who hurt me yet that was worth fretting over for the rest of my life. Their hurt is not worth my energy or my health! When memories of an offense try to rise up in my heart, I say “Hey heart, not my monkey, not my zoo, let’s keep it moving!

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April 29, 2015

The Art of Forgiveness

“It’s the hardest thing to give away
And the last thing on your mind today
It always goes to those that don’t deserve” 

Lyrics by Matthew West

I remember when this song was released.  I was in my car driving home crying while I listened to it play over the radio.  I had walked the hard road of forgiveness many times over by the time I’d heard it.  When God tells us to forgive someone 490 times, it’s really hard to comprehend why?  I haven’t always been a forgiving person.  In fact, my mom would always say, “Winter, you should work on having more mercy”.  I didn’t understand what she really meant, but at the time I thought, I’m forgiving, I’m just allergic to BS.  OK, so maybe she had a point back then, but boy does life have a way of teaching us the lessons we don’t necessarily plan to teach ourselves.

If you read my bio, you know that I married my college sweetheart at 19.  I’m sure you could imagine the struggles of a young married couple.  Finances, navigating relationships with in-laws, parenting, and learning how to be a godly couple.  Marriage is a lot of things, but I consider it an illuminator.  It will literally shine a light on every flaw you didn’t even know you had.  Mine was pride & respect.  I did not respect my husband & had trouble apologizing when I was disrespectful.  Our fighting, due to our age, was so ridiculous.  After one fight, he told me he was leaving me. He packed his backpack with nothing in it and walked around the apartment building only  to come back home 10 minutes later.  Plum silly!  Yet, we struggled on, growing and learning more about ourselves with each passing day.

After 4 years of marriage, we found ourselves in a totally new state & environment once he signed a contract to play in the NFL.  It was new & exciting, but ultimately it was the freight train we never saw coming.  I thank God for being in a place of deep relationship with him at the time.  It’s amazing how we can feel God pulling at us to draw closer to him at times.  Please know that if we refuse to give into those gentle tugs, we could be rejecting the very thing that may get us through a difficult time.  I had been meeting with a group of sister-friends for prayer for months in preparation for a conference.  When we arrived at the conference I remember praying for quite a few women.  One of the women shared with me regarding her marriage and how depressed she was due to her husbands infidelity.  To this day I can remember this thought “Thank God I don’t know what that’s like”.  I often wonder what God thought about my arrogant stupidity at that moment.  It is amazing how much pride & confidence we place in ourselves, man, and the things of this world.  Anyhow, it ended up being an amazing weekend.  Lives were changed and I still hear from women who were impacted that weekend.

I arrived home and life continued as usual.  About two months after, I was hit the news of infidelity in my marriage.  I can’t even begin to articulate the abysmal depth of pain I felt during that time. Forget feeling forsaken by God, I felt as if He had betrayed me.  How in the world could this have happened?!  I had done my best to live right, and at that moment, living right sucked!  I remembered those words my mom had always spoken to me about mercy when deciding how I would proceed from that point forward.  For the first time in my life, I made a decision to sincerely commit to walking the path of forgiveness regardless of where it led.

There were clearly some bumps in the road moving forward.  My choice to follow Christ down the road of “seventy times seven” was tested everyday.  In our humanness it is almost impossible to forgive and forget offenses, especially offenses of the heart.  In fact, I believe that is why Jesus said to forgive 70 times 7, because forgiveness is a continual choice that you make every single day.  We choose to forgive every time our mind wants to press rewind on that old tired cassette tape of offense.

We often judge people by their capacity to love, but loving is easy for most people.  I believe that God judges our capacity to forgive.  We do not forgive so the person who offended us can get away with what they did, but we forgive so we can get away from under the weight of what they did.

The Art of Forgiveness

The Art of Forgiveness

I wrote a while back about sowing the right way.  Forgiveness is our opportunity to sow the right way.  The harvest we seek may not be related to the current situation that requires forgiveness, but instead, to the peace we desire to walk in after an offense has been committed.  Forgiveness requires us to lay down our brushes of pride, bitterness, resentment, and retaliation before the person who ruined our painting.  It is an unnatural skill and we have to work at getting better at it every single day.  God is the master of restoring tainted art.  I learned that the real choice wasn’t about whether to stay or leave my circumstance, but rather to submit to the process of being repainted by the master artist.  I’ve learned that mercy & forgiveness is not only the right thing, but it’s the only thing that can restore the beauty of a ruined painting, unleash new possibilities with each stroke, and leave wondrous evidence of His majesty at work on the canvas of our lives!

P.S. If you have suffered the devastating blow of an affair in your marriage, I want you to reach out to me on Twitter/Facebook/Instagram for prayer.  There is hope regardless of the decision you make going forward.  You are treasured by a gracious Father in heaven who loves you more than you could ever imagine!

Until next time dear friends, I pray that each of you find the strength to forgive & enjoy living weight free!

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March 13, 2015

You Make Me Brave

I have been listening to the song You Make Me Brave over and over again.  I’ve never seen a force with a stronger grip that can keep us more bound up than fear.  It is as crippling, as it is paralyzing.  I’ve been writing a lot……….nothing will keep a story untold more than fear.  It’s been almost a year since I spent 2 weeks fighting for my life in the hospital.  I consider that time more of a divine encounter.  I know I was never the same when I left.  I struggled with fear a lot prior to that experience.  Fear of the unknown, fear of the future, fear of the past, and anxiety about certain situations and outcomes. What I learned is that if we believe that God is in control, then we have to be willing to relinquish control and fully put our trust in him.  Fear causes a healthy dose of what I like to call, faux anxiety.  You allow mountains to be made out of molehills.  Fear causes us to look at life through our rearview mirrors all the while missing the opportunities of the wide open windshield in front of us.  In Philippians 3:13 it says “No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead.”  Fear mutes the powerful words of our heart and silences the ability of our minds to think as God would have us to.  We can be assured of a couple of things if fear is in our driver’s seat:  we have made a choice to let fear drive and we have told God that we do not trust him enough to handle our lives.  How silly is that if you think you think about it?  I couldn’t tell Toyota how to fix their cars, they made them.  Likewise, how silly of us not to trust the God who made us, went before us, and has already gone ahead of us.  I pray that we all learn reject fear’s whispers of intimidation.  We have no reason to be afraid and therefore if God brings you through it, he has done so for a reason that is meant to impact more than just you.  Do not be afraid to share what He has done!

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February 17, 2015

Encouragement for the Divorced

I’ve been engaged in an interesting discussion about a sensitive topic today started by a Facebook friend.  It’s one of the things I appreciate the most about social media. Various opinions given by people whose perceptions and beliefs have been shaped by their own unique experiences. I believe in marriage, but after leaving the discussion, there are many things that have stuck with me, but something that lingers the most is the realization that many people have gone through or are going through divorce. There are many of you reading this now in that very situation. If you are, then this post is for you. My friend said it best, no one dreams about getting divorced when they are little. You only dream about the wedding fairy tale until you realize that fairy tales only exist on the big screen. It has been said that if you really want to know how people feel about you, get a divorce. I watched my mom lose tons of friends during her divorce. People, for whatever reason, feel obligated to judge & choose sides and if they don’t know what to do pull away. What concerns me the most is that many of you in this place may feel neglected as a result, like your life is over, and that God cannot use you with this stigma attached to your history. The church has done a poor job in helping people rebuild when they’ve found themselves in this predicament. Can I just assure you today that regardless of how you got where you are, that the failure is ultimately staying where you are. I want you to forgive yourself & your spouse (or ex-spouse), learn from your mistakes, and move forward. God has not forgot about you & you are still of use to Him. The truth is that His-stories are composed of our history regardless of what stories fill the pages, he can use it all. What you have before you is a choice to turn the page, began again, and with His help, the ability to live out an ending that is epic. In case you haven’t heard it in a while, you are loved, you are special, you are important, you still matter, and it gets better!!

In Lifestyle on
June 24, 2014

Frustrated Yet Encouraged

Good morning!! Reality has truly sunk in that having no immune system not only stinks, but is no joke. The treatment I started, wipes it out. I cant even begin to tell you how frustrated I’ve been over the last few days with this bug I have. I’ve tried everything & now I’m headed to the doctor. Although, Im frustrated, I was reminded of Psalm 61:2 “From the ends of the earth I call to you for help when my heart is overwhelmed, Lead me to the rock that is higher than I”. The whole chapter is short but so powerful. Maybe you are frustrated or overwhelmed like me today. Be reminded that we do not learn to have faith when we’re soaring, but instead when the wind has left our sails or when the waves threaten to overturn our boat of safety. God’s faithfulness is revealed when we no longer trust the wind or the boat but instead when our faith rests in the creator of them both. Worship a little harder wherever you are today.  Although I will miss church today, I’m so grateful for God’s presence & that worship is in our hearts & not a building!